I’m really upset with myself. Everytime I get paid, I tell myself to budget. This much will go to this, and that much will go to that. I always allocate funds for me to spend throughout the week, and yet something unexpected always comes up and I end up spending more then I intended. I hate these little unexpected bills, the extra charges on my phone bill, the interest fees on my credit cards, the little things I need to pick up that I completely forgot about. People have become enslaved all over again through money. Not even the wants, but the needs. You can’t trade a couple chickens for your diabetic medication. You can’t trade a bale of hay for a warm winter coat. You have to settle on selling it for less than it’s worth to purchase what you need for more than it’s worth. I feel like playing lotto ’till I hit it big, moving to a third world country and buying a farm full of cows, chickens, geese, and land for crops.
I just feel like no matter how hard anyone tries, they will always have to depend on someone else for income. No matter what field you are in, your income depends on a consumer needing, or wanting your product or services. Sometimes I think life thousands of years back was so much easier, simpler. Things like depression, anorexia, bulemia, they all have come to be because of our modern time. thousands of years ago, they didn’t want a tiny, thin woman, she wouldn’t be able to hear many healthy children. If you were sad about something, tough shit, you had work to do if you wanted to eat, there was very little idle time. You slept when you were too tired to work anymore, not because you have nothing better to do.
I’m just tired of everything. I’m tired of money, of people… Just everything. No matter what problems you have, it can be solved if you have a good amount of money, and that is not only sad and scary, but a sign of the times. No one values anything anymore.